You know how Gary says the only thing you want hard in life is a 🍆?

Well, that used to sound great to me in theory, but didn’t always seem possible. Especially when I got psychopath-cranky for no reason, my bank account didn’t look like it was supposed to, too many people needed me, not enough people needed me… or how about last week when Arthur and I lost our extra set of keys?

That shouldn’t be a big deal, right? But it drove me INSANE. For two weeks. Where were the keys? We lost our extra car key, extra building fob, extra mail key… I had to SHARE (lol), time things out, and talk to people I didn’t want to talk to just to get into our apartment.

My X-Men neurodivergent capacities were going 1000% in the wrong direction. You know when you’re so frustrated all you can do is lay down and die and watch Netflix while still making yourself wrong? You humanoid drama queens hear me?? Can I get an Amen?! Lol

So after two weeks of just being annoyed and letting my anger build up around these keys, I finally had a space of lightness where I decided to take action. FINALLY! I know—I’ll just call a locksmith, get new keys programmed, go pay for an extra fob, contact the mailman… it will be fine eventually. After all this hard work, I will have reconstructed my keys!

However! After the first attempt at finding the building tenants (who were out to lunch) failed, and there was no answer from the first locksmith I called, the anxiety, headache, DESPAIR, and total body shutdown came in again.

I tried “who does this belong to?” I tried “interesting point of view.” But it just seemed like EVERYTHING was complete shit, with no shovel to dig myself out.

My allowance was broken!

And then I recalled a conversation I had that morning with my friend Satu. We were doing a free Talk To The Entities Book Club call, and the chapter was “How Entities Can Help Us.”

And I thought, well, let me give this entities thing a shot, even though I was DOOMED to be miserable for all eternity! Lol

So I simply asked, “Hey guys, whoever can help, can you just assist me in having a better day?”

And that was it.

I kid you not, about 5 minutes later—I lost my only other set of keys. HAHA! I had just had them! So I went over to my purse and, lo and behold, there were BOTH sets of keys sitting on top of everything in my purse. I promise you, I had dumped my purse out at least 5 times in the last two weeks looking for those keys… and there they were!

And for whatever reason, it shifted my whole day. My body relaxed, I was happy, my foggy brain cleared up, and I was able to accomplish more in the last hours of the day than I had all week.

It was also a BIG slap in the face. I was working TOO HARD. And not the working hard of doing too much—the working hard of figuring everything out, not receiving from everything and everyone, not asking for help, functioning from the lies of what I thought I had to do versus what was actually possible. I was not allowing life to be easy!

So I ask you—when you’re frustrated, feeling psychically attacked, stressed, anxious, and nothing is going right and you just want to crawl in a hole and die… what if it’s because you’re not allowing yourself to perceive the easy road to take?

Tools:

• Who or what am I avoiding that, if I didn’t, would make my life easier?
• If it’s heavy, there’s a lie somewhere. What lies am I trying to make so real that I believe I have no choice?
• All the entities that are capable, willing, and able—help!
Dear consciousness, dear universe—help!
• How can this turn out even better than I could have ever imagined?

What a gift these little lost keys were. And now I know, if my life is going to shit, I’m going to do my best not to hyper-focus on how to fix it, on what’s wrong. I’m demanding of myself to acknowledge that’s the hard road to go. Is that what I would like to choose? No thank you!\

In a nutshell - if it's heavy, you're WORKING TOO HARD! hahaha